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YOU'RE SO SENSITIVE. I AM A MACHINE.

SeaStar — Mon, 20 Oct 2008 12:06:44 +0200

It's been months, who knows if I will get this right?
Look so close, there might be something you'd like. What was it like? So what's it feel like to be a ghost?
But I'm an addict for dramatics, I confuse the two for love and "You can't tell me that you don't beg..."
Me .. you ... such a liar. If we're keeping score then we're all choir boys at best, so intrusive and arrogant.
Despondent, distracted, you're vicious and romantic. These are a few of my favorite things.
Yeah, we're stubborn and melodramatic, a real class act. You see, I know a few of your favorite things.

The whole truth, and nothing but the truth ... the whole truth is nothing but a good excuse.
Let's be honest, a secret silenced is a secret safe.
"You have to, you just have to trust me ... Whoever I was then, I can't ever be again" ... stop me if you've heard this one before!

And we lay together just not too close (How close is close enough?)
I'm gonna make damn sure that you can't ever leave, that you won't ever get too far from me.
I just wanna break you down so badly, in the worst way. I'll trip over everything you say.
You had your chance, my open arms reject assuming hands. Just don't act like you're the first one, don't act like you can't see me, I'm coming darling.

But would you do it again, again and count backwards from ten?
I keep saying to myself " I cannot make those mistakes, no", but sometimes I swear I can see straight through you.
Breathe in and out, calm down, we can't go back. Just please don't torture me with my past.

And all of my worst habits, they all are proof that we're both capable of the most terrible things, so don't test me. There's no stopping me, I'm gutting you out. I'm scared cos' still it's you I can't deny.
Is this all too familiar? Does it happen all the time?
I'm just asking you to hear me.

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QUESTIONI ESTETICHE

SeaStar — Wed, 08 Oct 2008 19:22:12 +0200

della serie .. mi trovo un uomo o un hobby? o il mio hobby è trovare un uomo? e se poi lo trovo l'uomo... devo trovarmi un hobby? e se trovo l'hobby ho il tempo d trovare un uomo??

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I NEED A REAL CHALLENGE

SeaStar — Sun, 05 Oct 2008 19:40:10 +0200

I'm heaven sent,
don't you dare forget
I am all you've ever wanted,
what all the other girls all promised
Sorry I told
I just needed you to know

I think in decimals and dollars
I am the cause to all your problems
Shelter from cold
We are never alone
Coordinate brain and mouth
Then ask me what it's like to have myself so figured out
I wish I knew

I hope this songs starts a craze,
the kind of song that ignites the airways
The kind of song that makes people glad to be where they are
with who ever they're there with
This is war
Every line is about who I don't write about anymore
Hope you come down with something they can't diagnose,
don't have the cure for
Holding on to your grudge
Oh it's so hard to have someone to love
Keeping quiet is hard
'Cause you can't keep a secret if it never was a secret to start
At least pretend you didn't wanna get caught

We're consentratin' on fallin' apart
We were contenders, now throwin' the fight
I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe in us

Oh we're so c-c-c-c-c-controversial
We are entirely smooth
We fit to the truth
We are the best at what we do
And these are the words you wish you wrote down
This is the way you wish your voice sounds,
handsome and smart
Oh, my tongue's the only muscle on my body that works harder than my heart
And it's all from watching TV
and from speeding up my breathing
Wouldn't stop if I could
Oh it hurts to be this good
You're holding on to your grudge
Oh it hurts to always have to be honest with the one that you love
Oh so let it go

We're consentratin' on fallin' apart
We were contenders, now throwin' the fight
I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe in us

This is the craze only we can bestow
This is the price you pay for loss of control
This is the break in the ground
This is the closest of calls
This is the reason you're alone, this is the reason you fall!

We're consentratin' on fallin' apart
We were contenders, now throwin' the fight
I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe...

We're consentratin' on fallin' apart
We were contenders, now throwin' the fight
I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe in us.

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JUST GET OUT FIRST

SeaStar — Fri, 03 Oct 2008 22:07:07 +0200

Io ieri sera non ho fumato ma ero tipo fatta ... sono andata a letto con un cazzo di sorriso ebete in faccia ... e non capivo perchè, sorridevo e basta... bah!

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... AND WHAT IF I'M SCARED OF ACHIEVNG WHAT I WANT?

SeaStar — Sat, 27 Sep 2008 13:38:47 +0200

Hey there,
I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all.
Where you are and how you feel.
With these lights off as these wheels
keep rolling on and on. (and on and on and on...)
Slow things down or speed them up.
Not enough or way too much. (and on and on and on...)
How are you when im gone?

And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.

So cut my wrists and black my eyes. (Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

Spare me just three last words.
"I love you" is all she heard.
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.

Spare me just three last words.
"I love you" is all she heard.
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.

And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.

So cut my wrists and black my eyes. (Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.
You know you do you kill me well.
You like it too and i can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

So cut my wrists and black my eyes
(my final breath is gone)
So i can fall asleep tonight

And i can't make it on my own
(and i can't make it on my own)
Because my heart is in Ohio

So cut my wrists and black my eyes
(cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So i can fall asleep tonight or die
Because you killed me

You know you do you kill me well
You like it too and i can tell
You never stop until my final breath is gone

Hawthorne Heights > Ohio Is For Lovers

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RELIEF

SeaStar — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 18:43:59 +0200

Let's start out by starting over.
What did I expect?
You're no good at lying and I'm no good at comebacks.
I have got every word you said memorized in my head but I won't use every one of them against you.
I think I've reached that point where all the things you have to say and hopes for something more from me are just games to pass the time away.
I think I'll let you go for good.

Just be aware, there are moments forever faded.

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VOLCANO GIRL

SeaStar — Wed, 10 Sep 2008 22:46:39 +0200

A lot has changed ... all for the best!!
Incredible.
I'm so happy now.
Relaxed.
CoooooooooooooooL!
Leave me
Lying here
Cause I don't wanna go
Tell me, tell me what you really want from me
You gotta let me know
I'm falling off and I need you terribly
One down, and one to go.

I never loved nobody fully always one foot on the ground, all my friends say that of course it's gonna get better... AND SO IT IS!
Thing is I was messing with feelings, mine, his .. I was just pretending to care ... when I'm not even there.
I feel this incredible sensation .. my mind is so clear now.
Hope it last.

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IT MEANS NOTHING

SeaStar — Mon, 01 Sep 2008 20:48:38 +0200

YOU DON'T CARE HOW I FEEL SO I DON'T FEEL IT ANYMORE

This is the moment that you know
That you told her that you loved her, but you don't
You touch her skin and then you think
That she is beautiful, but she don't mean a thing to me
Yeah, she is beautiful, but she don't mean a thing to me

I spent two weeks in Silver Lake
The California sun cascading down my face
There was a girl with light brown streaks
And she was beautiful, but she didn't mean a thing to me
Yeah, she was beautiful, but she didn't mean a thing to me

I wanted to believe in all the words that I was speaking
As we moved together in the dark
And all the friends that I was telling
And all the playful misspellings
And every bite I gave you left a mark

As tiny vessels oozed into your neck
And formed the bruises
That you said you didn't want to fade
But they did and so did I that day

All I see are dark gray clouds
In the distance, moving closer with every hour
So when you'd ask, "Is something wrong?"
I'd think, "You're damn right there is
But we can't talk about it now
No, we can't talk about it now"

So one last touch and then you'll go
And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more
But it was vile, and it was cheap
And you are beautiful, but you don't mean a thing to me
Yeah, you are beautiful, but you don't mean a thing to me
Yeah, you are beautiful, but you don't mean a thing to me

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BLOODY ROMANCE

SeaStar — Wed, 27 Aug 2008 21:51:46 +0200

Plato wrote on the Republica eyes could remain dazzle for two reasons: because of going out from the light or because of going into the light.
And this is both for the mental and anatomical eye.
According to Plato, leaving the light to go into darkness, the human being remains bewilder because is not used to obscurity.
In the same way, passing from darkness to light, eyesight has to get used to light.
According to my presage, Capricorn, about three weeks ago you faced the first type of temporary blindness and really soon you could face the second one.

Platone scrive nella Repubblica che gli occhi possono rimanere abbagliati per due motivi: perché si esce dalla luce o perché si entra nella luce. Questo vale sia per l'occhio della mente sia per quelli del corpo. Secondo il filosofo, quando una persona lascia la luce per entrare nell'ombra resta sconcertata perché non è abituata all'oscurità. Allo stesso modo, quando passa dal buio alla luce la sua vista impiega un po' di tempo per abituarsi. Secondo la mia analisi dei presagi astrali, Capricorno, circa tre settimane fa hai dovuto affrontare il primo tipo di cecità temporanea e da un giorno all'altro potresti provare il secondo.

Vediamo un po' ... tre settimane fa' ... sono tornata dalle ferie e sinceramente c'è stato uno scarto di luce tra Sicilia e Irlanda.
Ma volendo essere meno pratici e più sentimentali, direi che proprio tre settimane fa' c'è stato il giro di boa, quando C. ha cominciato l'opera di distaccamento, a dire che è troppo busy per starmi dietro, e sono entrata nel tunnel.
Ora direi che non ne sono fuori, ma almeno si sono accese le luci in galleria.

I have a feeling, it’s a feeling,
I’m concealing, I don’t know why
It’s just a mental, sentimental alibi

But I adore you
So strong for you
Why go on stalling
I am falling
Our love is calling
Why be shy?

Let’s fall in love
Why shouldn’t we fall in love?
Our hearts are made of it
Let’s take a chance
Why be afraid of it

Let’s close our eyes and make our own paradise
Little we know of it, still we can try
To make a go of it

We might have an end for each other
To be or not be
Let our hearts discover

Let’s fall in love
Why shouldn’t we fall in love
Now is the time for it, while we are young
Let’s fall in love

We might have and end for each other
To be or not be
Let our hearts discover

Let’s fall in love
Why shouldn’t we fall in love?
Now is the time for it, while we are young
Let’s fall in love

Let’s fall in love
Let’s fall in love
Let’s fall in love

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SETTING UP MY MIND

SeaStar — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 20:23:10 +0200

Direi finalmente ... ho una risposta chiara e precisa ad una domanda altrettanto chiara e precisa.
C'è voluto 1 mese e svariate figure di M. ma ce l'ho fatta.

so .. have to ask .. did u get my txt last nite? (sorry this could be the only occasion in a milion weeks) :)
yup....you know i like you S...what i want is irrellevent right now....can't have anything i want....work is all i think about right now
yes but what I meant was more about how you feel about me. Cus something happened last nite .. and suddenly I realized that thing .. and was a shock for me.. really.
what happened??
I was in a bar with some friends .. the went out for a smoke and I was at the table alone for about 10 mins .. a guy came over to talk .. he offered a drink .. than a smoke outside .. he tried to hold my hand .. and the only thing I was thinking was "Why is not Cian who wants to hold my hand .. or try to kiss me? Oh my god I want only him!" thats what happened shortly.
awww
awww what? is terrible!
awww is sweet
you sweetie
yes it could be sweet .. but I feel sick. Cus now I know. I don't want a relationship now cus is impossible, just cus you are too busy. But I really need to know what you feel. That's the only thing that matter to me now. I need to know that no matter what there's piece of your mind or your heart where I am .. or in both .. but one is enough :)
really this could be enough .. I don't need 200 txts a day .. or something like that .. if you say something and u really mean it, is all i need
i'm always here for you and you're always in my thoughts babe......i wish i wasn't so busy and could pay more attention to you but right now is impossible for me....all i can afford to think about now is work and trying to keep going......i really like you S and i'll be back properly some day
ok ... do u mean it? cus from here to there I can only take it for granted.
wouldn't say it if i didn't
ok then. i'll keep it in mind.
:)

E adesso sto da pauraaaaaaaaa!!!

So close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

trust I seek and I find in you
every day for us something new
open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

so close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don't just say

trust I seek and I find in you
every day for us something new
open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know
YE-YEAH!!!

so close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
no nothing else matters

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